Confession of a fangirl.

I'm pretty sure by now this blog readers are very aware of my Arashi fandomness. But let me make things clear for you. I'm a fangirl but not really a fangirl. Don't get it?

Okay. Let me explain.

So I became an Arashi's fan at the beginning of the year 2010. I wasn't an instant fan. It took me a whole lotta time to actually love this group. Honestly, in the beginning, I was very much of Ikuta Toma's fan. I felt inlove with him right after I watched Hanazakari no Kimitachi e at the end of the year 2009.

I'm such a slow poke. I know.

Thing is, before I came to watch that drama, I was more of a Heroes, Desperate Housewives, Supernatural and Dollhouse's fan. I watched those drama heartfully and care less about Jpop except Morning Musume and the rest of Hello! Project's artists. ;p

But when all of that come to an end and on a break, I somehow felt lost. My life somehow felt so empty. Cus I got nothing to do anymore. So the first thing I did, was dug out my younger sister's Jdorama collection and remembered that I used to wanna watch HanaKimi months ago. But I was too preoccupied with other drama so I kinda forgot everything about it.

Long story short, I then started to google more info about Ikuta Toma once I finished watching the whole drama. And that's when I came across Arashi's TV shows. Yerp! I knew Arashi from way back.

 But never a fan. But their TV shows made me changed it otherwise.

Their first TV show that I came across was Arashi no Shukudai-Kun and Mago Mago Arashi. I wasn't attached immediately with the TV show tho'. But for some reason, I'm curious with what's goin on and decided to search for a full version of the show.

And I did.

And from that moment, Arashi is my new addiction. Like seriously. I began to download every TV shows that they appeared in. Watched it like crazy and I can confirm that there hasn't been a single day since that, that I missed watching Arashi. Yes. I am that crazy.

I felt inlove with them in just a month knowing them. They are the most unique boyband that I ever came across with. They can go wacko and dorky at some point. But then transformed into a handsome young man the next. Seriously, I love these dorks so much.

Sumpah! Tak pernah suka a band teramat sangat macam ni. Even Backstreet Boys or even N*sync or 5ive or even Westlife! Takkan boleh compete dengan Arashi. Serious!

Okay. Sorry. I'm a little bias. I love these boys way too much.

But despite all that, I have to admit that I'm not that type of fangirl who would spent all my money on their cds or dvds. If I find it's rather expensive and I surely can't afford it, I won't definitely gonna buy it. I even won't ever save my money just because I wanna attend their concerts that held every year in Japan. No. I just not gonna do it.

Maybe some of you would say that I'm not a true fan. Whatever. I just don't give a flying crap about that. I know what kind of fan I am. At least I don't go harassing their daily life and hate their girlfriend.

I'm just here supporting their works, musics and lives as far as I can. But I ain't gonna waste my life and money on something that I can't even afford. So dear Arashian, don't be mad at me when I told you that I don't even own a single CD of their musics or DVD. Except those bootleg version. Cus it's the only version that I can afford.

To me, being a fan is not all about being able too purchased all of their limited edition stuffs. Or attending their concerts live every single year. No. Not to me.

I prefer to sit back and enjoy every performance they give, every drama they act in, and every TV show they appeared on. And support them in whatever they do and accept them for who they are. Not what they are. Yes. I am the lamest kind of fan. And I'm proud of it.

I don't wanna own them. I just wanna watch them from the far.

By now, most of you would go "yea...right!" tsk..you know what? Whatever. I ain't even mad. This is just my honest confession of being a fangirl.

Don't like it?

I don't even care, honey. ;p

Byebui~!

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